Breathe Again

Listening to Breathe Again by Sara Bareilles took me right back to when I first walked away from him.

I wasn’t so sure I’d ever breathe again without that deep seering pain, but I needed to leave so badly, it became worth the risk.

I imagine some part of me will always ache, but I am so grateful for the courage I found to leave, and the belief that I’d find my way.

It’s been a much harder road than I ever imagined, but it was worth it all to breathe this free again.

~ cj 2013.07.25

Below is a video and the lyrics to the song that took me back, straight from her lips to my heart.

Car is parked,
bags are packed,
but what kind of heart
doesn’t look back
at the comfortable glow
from the porch,
the one I will still call yours.

All those words came undone
and now I’m not the only one
Facing the ghosts that decide
if the fire inside still burns.

All I have,
all I need,
he’s the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands,
still I’m searching for something.

Out of breath,
I am left hoping someday
I’ll breathe again.

I’ll breathe again.

Open up next to you
and my secrets become your truth
And the distance between
that was sheltering me
comes in full view.

Hang my head,
break my heart
built from all I have torn apart
And my burden to bear
is a love I can’t carry anymore

All I have,
All I need,
he’s the air I would kill to breathe

Holds my love in his hands,
still I’m searching for something

Out of breath,
I am left hoping someday
I’ll breathe again.

It hurts to be here.
I only wanted love from you.
It hurts to be here.
What am I gonna do?

All I have,
all I need,
he’s the air I would kill to breathe

Holds my love in his hands,
still I’m searching

All I have,
all I need,
he’s the air I would kill to breathe

Holds my love in his hands,
still I’m searching for something.

Out of breath,
I am left hoping someday,
I’ll breathe again.

~ Lyrics to Sara Bareilles – Breathe Again