Giving Me Permission

I take photos of things other than the sky; I do! But for now, I like taking sky photos best.

So I let myself take them, as much as I want, whenever I want.

It is my gift to me, to try to make amends for all the years I spent denying me.

The truth is, I almost always give myself permission to do what I like, even when I don’t understand why I’m doing it…perhaps ESPECIALLY then. I rarely try to manage it, or push myself into doing something I don’t want to do.

What I’ve learned by doing this, is that if I give in to myself kindly and authentically enough, if I silence my own naysayer, eventually what I’m truly up to inside, reveals itself.

And that’s when I get the important gift of understanding me and learning my own value.

I trust that if I give myself permission like this enough, I will never fall into the hole of an unhappy life full of denying me again.

~ cj 2014.03.29

Plus, I’ll have a bunch of sky photos, and maybe even some bad-ass photography skills!