how dare you
violate our friendship
and me
by taking more than I offered
without asking
or even explaining
making me feel so awkward
and unsure
of the violations’s very existence
that I keep silent
allowing the unwanted affection
to continue
because I don’t know any better
what to do
and most of all
because I don’t know how to stop
you from that
without stopping you from liking me, too.
how dare you
violate our friendship
and me
by then naming me as involved
without asking or explaining
twisting the truth till I feel so ashamed
and guilty
of the violation’s very existence
that I keep my silence
allowing the undeserved blame
to continue
because I don’t know
any better what to do
and most of all
because I don’t know how to stop
you from that
without stopping me from losing you, too.
how dare you?
~ cj 2010.12.18
