With all my heart
I hope you love that man
enough to pay back
what you’ve
stolen from him
You held him tight
while you were
holding another
extracting a promise
that he’d deny his
own nobility
in exchange for an
empty covenant of
nothing to come.
You pretended release
of that wounded warrior,
‘freeing’ him
to make love
but not promises,
creating a prisoner
who now believes
he is worthy of nothing.
His needy weakness
shamed his honor
so deeply
he shrank back and ran
frightened
from a new road
he was never free
to explore
with someone
who deeply understood
his flaws and his fears
and still ached for
still loved
still wanted
the precious heart
of that man.
You stole this from him
while you,
his soul-less kidnapper,
lived and breathed
married night air
with another,
as if all was right
in the world.
You’ve taken from him
his most likely chance,
and cost him
so dearly, that now
all I can do is
release him to you
hoping with all my heart
you’ll love him enough
to make up
for what you’ve stolen
from him.
~ cj 2011.10.03
ouch
Yep. Exactly. It hurts.
Wow! Wonderful…can you write some music to this and a chorus? This is some serious stuff. I love the honesty.
No, can you? Hehe. You know funny you should mention this. After playing piano from sheet music since I was 5, I’m just now starting to set myself free to touch the keys without that guidance. It’s been a year of setting myself free in lots of ways. Who knows what’s next? Thanx for reading and encouraging me. It keeps my heart open even when it’s scary.
This is very direct and very honest. I Love the way that you open up and engage the re-growth of you.
I really like your work CJ!
As always, thank you for sharing.