Monthly Archives: January 2011

Just Registered For My First Full Marathon (SparkPeople)

Originally posted on SparkPeople. In this moment, on this day, I am so proud of myself I can barely breathe. I signed up for my very first full marathon. It is the last in a series of five races that … Continue reading

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Who Will?

You held me crying my heart out from losing my love. who will hold me now crying my heart out from losing your love. ~ cj Bookmark on Delicious Digg this post Recommend on Facebook share via Reddit Share with … Continue reading

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Small Big Things (SparkPeople)

Originally posted on SparkPeople. I have been writing, nearly non-stop, since I wrote to you here on Jan. 3rd. What I’ve written is here. ┬áIt’s also in my notebook, it’s in my correspondence with close friends. So I haven’t gone … Continue reading

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Chokehold

For hours I struggled in my sleep last night trying to take something off my neck. I felt like I was choking and trying to break free. This morning I woke to find my necklace next to my bed on … Continue reading

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Breaking The Law

I break the law in the morning. I break the rules all day. I breakdown at night. I wake up and do it again. The cycle of life when you’ve chosen to do 80 in a 40. ~ cj 2011.01.19 … Continue reading

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Yummy

My words feel like pieces of food on a shelf. I pick them out, rearrange them, and give them a taste as they might go down together. And if they feel right in my mouth, on my tongue, once they … Continue reading

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How

How did we get here? So lost from there nowhere near the there we were hoping to go. i’m not sure i can possibly know. ~ cj 2011.01.19 Bookmark on Delicious Digg this post Recommend on Facebook share via Reddit … Continue reading

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Layers of Adjustment

We adjust to our realities, to our lives, to our hopes, our dreams, our failures in layers. When we are young we are horrified by the notion of things we’ll never do again because we are too old. When we … Continue reading

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Not A Thing To Do But Move With You

no one ever stays up as long as i do or sleeps as little i can’t imagine lying down to rest while someone moved about awake without me coming along my restless spirit is always seeking moving, doing, whether there’s … Continue reading

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Let’s Just Agree

Let’s just agree that we’ll go our separate ways because there doesn’t seem to be enough room on this road together. instead of facing forward running smooth to our destination we’re turned in or turned out in a bad alignment … Continue reading

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Artifacts

When I pull away and look back at the artifacts the remnants and fabric of the life I’m leaving behind on the ground I see a sad combination of the hope & promise of life I was sure would continue … Continue reading

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No Thank You, I’ll Pass

walk away stop step back go leave resist can’t do hang on not yet do without restrain wait don’t mean put off not ready drop back de-escalate later no thank you i’ll pass. ~ cj 2011.01.07 Bookmark on Delicious Digg … Continue reading

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A Short Essay On A Long Marriage (SparkPeople)

Originally published on SparkPeople. I can share here, right? I’ll tell you straight out what happened. My husband and I are separated. We got separated on January 1st, our 21st wedding anniversary. We didn’t get in a fight. It was … Continue reading

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