Monthly Archives: September 2011

See You Soon – Coldplay

In a bulletproof vest, with the windows rolled up, I’ll see you soon. I put the video and lyrics on this page: See You Soon by Cold Play Bookmark on Delicious Digg this post Recommend on Facebook share via Reddit … Continue reading

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Shivering

I left you alone, your last goodnight ringing in my ears, tears blurring my sight. I dimmed the lights quietly on my way out, and the truth is, I shivered from your cold. I wasn’t sure my heart was strong … Continue reading

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All My Life

All my life love equaled owning. It did not exist, love could not last, unless it stayed beside me tucked in with my life. Please know, I did not have to hold tight. Still, I could not imagine how to … Continue reading

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Last Call

GM …..Yes. A Good Morning. Call? …..I’m sorry; I will no longer take it. Listening. …..I have nothing more. Hey there. I hope you’re having a good day. …..I am sad, but I’ve reclaimed my heart. I will say goodnight, … Continue reading

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Relief

relief    escapes       in deep sighs    from my lips and heart relief    floods me       as i breathe          deeper now       away from you    than i dared anywhere near relief    kisses me       holds me          closer than       you ever cared to relief    touches me … Continue reading

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Remaining Fool

You are the only remaining fool for you. You are the only fool remaining for you. ~ cj 2011.09.23 Either way, a fool remains. Bookmark on Delicious Digg this post Recommend on Facebook share via Reddit Share with Stumblers Tweet … Continue reading

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In Your Heart

I will not lie. Sometimes I wish I were living in your new house with you. It would be beautiful, but not because it is a new house. It would be beautiful because you are living there. Sometimes I wish … Continue reading

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Beware

Beware of one who calls upon you without warning or explanation, to offer you, especially you, a word of use-ful warning, without also offering a useful explanation of why she chose you for her calling. ~ cj 2011.09.23 Bookmark on … Continue reading

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Evil

The evil in the world skulks in darkness demanding silence for hoarded secrets. ~ cj 2011.09.22 Bookmark on Delicious Digg this post Recommend on Facebook share via Reddit Share with Stumblers Tweet about it Subscribe to the comments on this … Continue reading

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Limbo

Limbo. That moment when my heart is so twisted up and unbalanced that all it would take is a whisper from you for me to fall back into your arms. ~ cj 2011.09.22 Bookmark on Delicious Digg this post Recommend … Continue reading

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The Path of Proving

I have been thinking deeply about the path we’re each on in our lives. I’ve been watching closely to see what people’s prime motivations are. Sometimes they know and can easily tell me when I ask. Sometimes it is hidden, … Continue reading

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Walk It Back – R.E.M.

Where, where would I go How could I follow that Except to do what I did Walk it Back Lyrics: Walk it back Walk it back Walk it back What, what would you Have had me say Instead of what … Continue reading

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Deserving Soulmates

You are so very right You deserve each other in every kind of way. But I am not so sure I could swallow the words soul mates as uttered by you to describe your destructive alliance. Implying you own anything … Continue reading

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Give And Take

Allow yourself to show need, and learn how to take what is offered, accepting another’s generous gift with grace and humility. Do so with a wide-open heart, because there is no other way you can truly understand how to give … Continue reading

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Gifts

You lost all your gifts along the way running down a busy highway of fear chased by a runaway load of frightened imagination filled with terrors that wouldn’t come to pass. You anxiously dropped each one as you desperately struggled … Continue reading

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A Love I Can Hold Onto

You do not love me back  in any kind of way  I can hold on to.  I must let go  so I do not fall over an edge where I cannot be found or there is little left to recover. … Continue reading

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For You, Sweet Friend

Thank you for being part of my journey, sweet friend. I hope you find whatever you seek today, as I dream for you always. I wish you a memorable journey of beautiful moments strung together with smiles and love-filled hugs. … Continue reading

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Never Enough

All my life I was never enough for them or the others, for her, or him, then, for you, and mostly  definitely until now for me.  ~ cj 2011.09.17 Bookmark on Delicious Digg this post Recommend on Facebook share via … Continue reading

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Knock, Knock

Knock, knock. Who’s there? It’s me; You know who I am. How are you? Are you alone and may I come in? It’s chilly outside and your heart is so warm. Our lives are scattered with beautiful moments when the … Continue reading

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Here We Go Heart

Here we go, heart. Are you packed up and ready to go? I’ve got Go Gordy And my map. What have you done to prepare? I’ve brought my journals and… Ah, I see you brought your passion. That’s good. Oh, … Continue reading

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Roger Ebert Is My Hero

Roger Ebert is My Hero. The link to the story is here: http://budurl.com/nprebert The screenshot of this part of his interview says exactly how I feel about being open. I put my heart out there, I tell my stories. I … Continue reading

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Heart Strings

Sweet man what is the thread that ties us from here back to there and to each other? It’s been so many days and so many loves since we held one another. You’d think any tie we had any sense … Continue reading

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Sweet Sup

No more crumbs I am not a baby bird dying for some chewed up puked out leftover love. No more lonely waiting for morsels of attention to fall my way while I sit like a sad puppy with big beggar … Continue reading

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Cravings

You have sampled my sweetest wares and know full well in your heart I’ll satisfy your deepest cravings. ~ cj 2011.09.13 Bookmark on Delicious Digg this post Recommend on Facebook share via Reddit Share with Stumblers Tweet about it Subscribe … Continue reading

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Fifty Hours

A lifetime of knowing and never knowing you trails behind and stretches out in front of me. And now here we are fifty hours away from eleven hours together at our very best. I will try to be present and … Continue reading

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How To Be Perfectly Happy

Once upon a time, everyone I knew expected me to be perfect. When I wasn’t, I got into an extraordinary amount of trouble. Being infinitely flawed, never near perfect, I was nearly always in trouble. I was too loud, I … Continue reading

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The Details Do Not Matter

Do you know me? You no longer know my details. But in this moment they do not matter. I do want to tell you this much. This much I need you to know. I still play piano. Every single key … Continue reading

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Perfectly Happy

There is only one direction I can go from perfect and if I gained it, I would always be ripe for a fall from such a high perch. So I’ve made a choice to abandon perfect. And instead, I want … Continue reading

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Hollywood & Sunshine

Those were the days of Hollywood and Sunshine both of us shining stars glowing brightly in a different space. I stumbled by skinny in my brown polyester dress waiting tables hungry for food waiting on you starving for love. You … Continue reading

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Taker

You go deeper than the heart greedy taker-soul using Your love, like a shiny, sparkling hook fishing for another to feed Your raisin-shriveled heart. You say, “Pet Me, give to Me, look what I have home, car, money, manners, dress, … Continue reading

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My Heart (felt) Manifesto

I am your heart, and I love you dearly. You can feel me in your chest nearly all the time. I beat like crazy when you run. I know I wake you with panic often in the night. I soar … Continue reading

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Everywhere I Go

Everywhere I go, I go with my whole heart. It always lets me know it’s right by my side. Sometimes it screams when I’ve burned it raw And other times it makes me fly. But scream or soar, I will … Continue reading

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Thistle And Weeds

This simple, powerful melody, the intense, spot-on message held my battered heart in a special place these past few days, so it could safely feel, and begin to heal. I played it over and over, and then taught myself an … Continue reading

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I Am Ok

I am ok. I don’t care. I don’t need you. You don’t matter. Until I wake. Or I sleep. Or I remember or I think. Until I see in my mind’s eye your eyes looking into mine. Until I go … Continue reading

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Begging The Universe

I woke this morning, begging the universe to erase this truth from my now open eyes, so the stone heavy ache in my heart would be lifted as I struggle to breathe. I was denied that relief, and shown two … Continue reading

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Digging Out Of A Ditch

When I was a teenager, I was in a band. One day, another band came in on their day off, and heard us play. The band members said “Hey, if you ever wanna move to Florida, you could join our … Continue reading

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