Monthly Archives: June 2012

Playing Me

I made a movie  of your hands touching the keys, playing my piano. you were amused that I’d do this, and asked me why. I lied to you and fooled you  into believing I just wanted to learn how to … Continue reading

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Pulling Up The Covers

when I first slept alone again after so many  years next to you, my broken heart  insisted I quickly  make the bed  the moment I  woke each morning, so I wouldn’t hurt each time through my bedroom  noticing how  perfectly your side … Continue reading

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Watching

whenever she’s awake, she’s watching… sometimes out there but usually me. if I move, she follows and brings her sister with. if I pay attention, she leans into me and loves back.  I wonder what she’s thinking;  she never says … Continue reading

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5am Tension and Resolution

5 in the morning, I can’t sleep because I’m worried about Sophie and all the other big life changes I’m facing.  I write some emails, I look on Facebook. Finally, unable to distract myself from it all, I escape to my … Continue reading

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Walls

Walls don’t stop the pain… they just trap it inside so it festers and oozes out destroying what could have been fertile ground. ~ cj 2012.06.24 Bookmark on Delicious Digg this post Recommend on Facebook share via Reddit Share with … Continue reading

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Lingered

Lingered (cj 2012.06.23) ********* My fingers lingered when we shook hands or was it yours that stayed behind whispering softly an extra moment as they gently pulled away saying goodbye and nice to meet each other. I liked that you … Continue reading

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Holding Out For Dawn

When a night bears down heavy on me With the tragedies and mis-steps of the day I exhale a sigh and close my eyes Holding on tight til tomorrow. Long before the sun comes up The first light seeps into … Continue reading

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I’m Not Going Anywhere

“I’m not going anywhere” you’d said, while you extracted yourself from the wreckage, wanting space between you and the painful rift you’d ruthlessly, thoughtlessly, carelessly caused between us. “I’m not going anywhere”, you’d said, but then, unable to resist, you … Continue reading

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It Left Me Room

At first a hole opened up in my evenings at the time you used to call, yawning, stretching out wide open empty, keeping me awake. It left room and time to reflect alone in the dark, to sink into the … Continue reading

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FryDay Tears

Every Friday, Jeffrey Fry sends out FryDay humor to his email list. It always makes me laugh, sometimes pretty hard. Almost every Friday, I used to forward that email to my Dad, imagining him laughing. He forwarded me funny emails, … Continue reading

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Tomorrow

Tomorrow is a sad one year anniversary for me. I made a choice because I couldn’t take the pain anymore. One year ago tomorrow was the day my husband and I stopped living together after more than 23 years. I’ve … Continue reading

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A Silken Web

That first piece of silken web delicately, finely woven from there to here and back again. Swaying softly in the breeze hardly seen it didn’t look like it could hold a thing. In those moments it could have been broken … Continue reading

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I Am The Boss

******** I Trusted You ******** I trusted you. I opened my eyes my heart my mouth my arms my body my legs I trusted you when you promised you wouldn’t that you truly wouldn’t. I believed between us that no … Continue reading

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